Sometimes I think that the constant fight to amass things that weigh on us and subjugate us comes from the inability to live the present. What is that I insist on achieving? What happens if I don’t get there?
One day, one page, one sketch of GREAT EXPECTATIONS, published daily at 8:40 AM.
Sometimes I think that the constant fight to amass things that weigh on us and subjugate us comes from the inability to live the present. What is that I insist on achieving? What happens if I don’t get there?
So many times I’ve resisted change to break a bad habit by projecting a negative outcome from it, even though I didn’t have any knowledge or experience to validate that projection. Why do we feel so comfortable with our own old ways? Why is it so hard to trust new ones?
It’s amazing how we can be so unconsciously insensitive sometimes, and say the most hurtful things while being completely unaware of our own stupidity. I think part of that is caused when you have the same kind of friends, that talk the same, think the same, and look the same. Care for someone different than you and you will be a better person.
Those uncertain and unpunctual moments that strike me unexpectedly, when I feel I don’t know whether I am desperate or not, when everything has a bitter taste. On those moments I feel my hands cold, and my dreams lost in the clouds. It takes a bit of time for me to let them go and recover.
I struggle sometimes with the idea of having principles and morals when there are so many crazy people in the world. Isn’t our lucidity responsible for their craziness?
My History teacher in High School was also my college counselor. She reproved me for thinking of a career in Fine Arts. She said it was a waste. My brother was already in college, and he encouraged me to take it. After much thought, I listened to my brother. I’m glad I did. But I also wanted to study architecture. I still do.
Feeling pessimistic has such a negative stigma these days. I remember when feeling sad about life and yourself was an organic way to handle insurmountable contradictions. I regret that now it means something is wrong with you.
I see those moments of intense melancholy in a different way now. More like a state of vague dreaminess that nests in indoor spaces.
Whenever I find anything lost by anyone, I try my best to help getting it back to its owner, because that owner could be me someday, feeling a sudden sense of vertigo for the loss, as if standing on top of a high bridge and looking down.
I’d like to think that everyone has different kinds of secrets. There are those ones that you want to share with your closest circle, mostly concerning other people, and those ones you simply cannot share with anyone. Those ones are about yourself.
I believe that the drawback of having expectations for something, or someone, is the huge amount of uncertainty that it awakens. Sometimes, when I teach, I tell my students that my only job is to lower their expectations: it’s a powerful blessing in disguise.
Sometimes I feel like if I would apologize less and protest more I would be better off somehow. I then realize that the problem is not how often we do it, but how we do it, and when we do it.
I remember when I went once to a fortune teller. She told me a lot of awful things. I got so upset that I told her she was absolutely wrong. She’s out of business now. From that moment on I started creating my own answers.
Our birthday is our own personal New Year’s Day. The sun rises up just for you. Look ahead with your heart not just your eyes, or your hands, or your pockets. No need to be a dictatorial glutton, just don’t waste the chance to be the happiest for yourself. It’s not about others, or about things.
I’ve been thinking how phobia against poverty could be put in the same closet as racism, or even homophobia. I don’t think it’s that long of a stretch. It’s a similar kind of social phobia. And it’s rearing its ugly head too often these days.